Tomas's week back in New York, last Saturday to Saturday in May, was filled with love, family, food, friends, cake, sunshine, shenanigans, laughter, and good quality time. It was filled with so much more than my past four months without him...and that seems to be the theme everytime we see each other since he moved to Texas. ...so what am I doing? Yeah, that's been a resounding question lately.
I recently came across this notion: EVERTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. It struck me in such a way, and explains a lot of how I felt the week he was back in NY. You see, I'm in the process of recovering from my perfectionism - a damaging, all-encompassing personality trait that I didn't even realize I had until recently. My perfectionism manifests itself in many ways, but most notably in always searching for what I can learn from things to make myself better. {deeeep sigh} Yeah. I'm in constant pursuit of the reason why things happen that I'm not enjoying them as they happen. With Tomas here last week, things were happening...and those things involved all you see above. Great things: Playing with your food! Wearing a dress and silly glasses and posing for picture with friends! Throwing frisbees! Getting dessert mid-afternoon! Drinking red wine on a Thursday! ...things life is supposed to be made of. Not pondering all the time. Not making sure you do life 'right'. Everything happens. Period. Not 'for a reason' - because then your life becomes about fulfilling some reason's prophecy, and that's plain exhausting.
I think that's all I want to say about that. ...and that I miss him.
I suppose we'll see where the rest of 2014 takes us. ♥ I suppose we all will. ♥ Have a good day!
