I set out at the beginning of this year with the one little word work in mind. I for sure wanted to find work, and that I did. A great job. Pretty perfect for me, and just what I wanted. I immersed myself in my new job and wanted to do my best, and I did, and still am.
Then...out of nowhere...anxiety hit me. I talked a little bit about it here and here. It started in March, but became a funk of epic proportions in April. Last month is a bit of a blur, but I have been feeling better. I still feel like I'm in a hole, but I'm slowly and surely climbing out of it.
The objective of my two goals this month is to eliminate the pressure I put on myself. I have been told I'm an intense person, which is so funny, because it's the exact opposite of what I value: happy, jolly, laugh-at-yourself, don't take life too seriously, etc. But I am. I tend to get intense and even catastrophic in my mind at times. I've been told I'm a perfectionist and only see things in black|white, which is also so funny, because I value the exact opposite of those things, too. But alas, I am human and an overly-ambitious one at that. I simply place too much pressure on myself to do, be, and...sadly...'WORK' towards...whatever.
This month, I'm channelling my one little word 'work' into the notion of just being in the moment -breathing, resting, relaxing - and taking the pressure off myself to constantly be working on or towards something.
Maybe I should try meditating again. That was a whole year ago. Wow. So was this. ♥ Happy NSD! Enjoy!
