A few days ago, I read this post from zen habits & watched the accompanying video. It was about surrendering. Not in a negative way, like 'giving up', but rather surrendering control. Surrendering constant vigilance and pursuit. That idea spoke to me tremendously.
I am a vicious type A most of the time, vigilantly in pursuit of getting "caught up" with all the daily to-do's and creative ambitions I have. December doubles the load, because now you're convinced everything is supposed to be magical, so you stress over making it so. Truth is, I can't sanely keep up with everything. I'm discovering -- especially this month -- that I cannot be that hyper-vigilant all the time. Nobody can.
I cannot fight sleep + do two projects this month for Document Life Workshop + Project Life + December Daily + try to photograph them before the short daylight hours go away + work on my professional design portfolio + create a professional design website + DIY my own business cards + be personal assistant to my mom + babysit my dad + Christmas shop + update my resume + job search + write a post on this blog everyday + be a friend + be a sister + go on a juice fast + try not to break Tomas's heart + write down every single goal and idea that I want to achieve and pursue by the time 2014 hits + ...
I can't do it. I thought I could, but I can't. I am surrendering. I am declaring here that December will be a month of only couple of those things, in priority order, and I'm sorry, but Project Life, December Daily, and this here blog: I love you, but you're sadly at the bottom of that list.
December will be about my portfolio, my website, my business cards, and two projects for DLW. That's it. Those are my selected focus, in order of importance. I'm not superwoman. I do not have a "team". I'm no big shot, and quite frankly, I'm tired. :)
So...I'll see you when I see you, readers!
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